Blogtober Day 4…

 

I was once a magnet. I attracted things. I repelled things. I clung to things and I let go of things that lost their charge. Sometimes I fell and other times I was thrown away. I would get shoved in drawers, overlooked, and forgotten. Time went by and there were fragments of me scattered in all the places I had been. I lost parts of me and even some of who I was, but I never lost my purpose. I’m a magnet and somewhere there are magnetic fragments of me. While fragments of me aren’t the whole of me they are pieces of me that are capable of doing what I do on a much smaller scale. There are some pieces of me that are no longer magnetized and do nothing, but they don’t have to stay that way.

Do you sometimes feel like this magnet? You give and give of yourself and you need to be poured into. Magnets are supposed to attract oppositely charged magnets. They have a job and they do their job whether we use them or not. We aren’t magnets. It’s not easy to be overlooked and forgotten. We weren’t built to be discarded. Our spirits were made with the purest intent to love and be loved. However, there are moments when we allow what may look like love into our lives and we are left broken and fragmented. A piece of us taken with that interaction.

There are pieces of me in spaces that I will never see. There are people that come into our lives only to take. There is nothing they can really offer us but there is something about them that we allow in our space. So, there are pieces of us in spaces we will never see. While we have to recover from those encounters, we also learn to beware of those types of people.

What happens when we give so much of ourselves that we are no longer charged or magnetized? If a magnet loses its magnetic charge, there is a process to magnetize it again. When we are in that space where we feel empty, we must seek our source to be filled. For me, I am a bit of an introvert. I need to have some quite time with God. I need to write and talk and pray. When I’ve had a bit of time to myself, I feel recharged and I can give of myself again. I don’t know what you may need but if you are feeling empty please pray and seek God on how to feel filled and whole again.

The beauty in where we are in our lives right now is that like the magnet and the magnetic fragments, you can be magnetized or charged again. It doesn’t matter how old you are or what you’ve been through. The moment you choose you want what was always yours all you have to do is believe. Faith, it takes only faith to go from an idea to an action. In our most broken spaces is where we can sometimes find the ability to pull faith out of nothing.

What do you dream of doing? Are you doing it? I love what I do but I never say myself in the field I’m in. I was in a very broken and empty space in my life. I started praying and asking God to just help me get a job using my degree. I didn’t know what type of job to even apply for. I would read the job descriptions and apply. I applied to everything. Eventually, I got a job and I was so unfulfilled I started thinking maybe I need to rediscover an old dream that I had determined was not on the table for me. After about a year and a half I was offered another job. I liked that one a little more, but I felt out of my depth and intern unfulfilled. I stumbled into where I am now, and I enjoy what I do. I feel fulfilled in my day to day and I feel I’m honoring my desire to use my degree. Watching my pray not just be answered but evolve has been amazing. This doesn’t mean my life is perfect. I still have desires and prayers that are in the process of being answered. Not all my coworkers are my friend. Everything around me isn’t perfect but it’s beautiful. I am watching God do amazing things in my life and this journey is one I’m excited to be on. I hope you are magnetized again to walk in your purpose and discover what charges you.

Love ya, 

-Juls