Blogtober Day 1...

For the next 30 days I want to post something every day. I am challenging myself to focus on me in one area of my life and truly dig deep to see what God sees in me. I hope you enjoy and share and see the beauty in the YOU that God created. Love -Juls

This year has been one long rollercoaster ride. At times I’m ready to wiggle my way out of the seat and jump to get off this ride. But, there are amazing moments when the flutters in my stomach remind me I’m having a good time and I can ride just a bit longer. When this year started, I was determined to not say, “Yo, this year is going to be my year!” I’ve said this too many years in a row and each year I’m looking at December like Deborah Cox singing, “How did you get here?” My year not getting off to a great start could have also had something to do with it but that was 10 months ago and 2020 is out for blood let’s be honest. This is the one year I think we can all agree whatever was supposed to happen for Y2K (2000) happened this year! The year wasn’t all bad. I’ve grown a lot mentally and spiritually. I’ve been able to spend time with my children in an abundance that has blessed and tried me. I’m thankful. 

I don’t know what your heart desires most. It is my prayer that you seek God every time you feel the distance of your hearts desire grow. For the first time in a very long time I love what I do. If this year has taught me anything, or allowed me to recognize anything, it’s that I absolutely love what I do. I enjoy the work I do and when I am exhausted from work I’m satisfied. This year there were so many plans for work but COVID has brought much of what I do to a halt. I wasn’t sure what would happen but my God in his amazingness had a plan. I’ve spent so much time getting closer to the Lord and it’s been refreshing. I’m seeing things about myself that I don’t like and how Jesus loves even those parts of me. Most of all I’m learning the areas that God thinks are so amazing to him about me. 

When this quarantine started, I was and still am working from home. To all the, if you don’t come out of quarantine with a new hobby or a new stream of income, please stop! WE DON’T ALL HAVE TO LEARN, DO, OR CREATE DURING THIS TIME. If you started a new business wonderful. If you developed a new hobby congratulations. If you are making it through the day ALIVE!!!! I feel you, I’m with you, my heart beats for you. I am working and my children are in school all at the same location. I have science projects in my kitchen, math practice on my sliding door, chores (that no child does) on my refrigerator, and every paper for every class spread across a table and 2 desks. The guest bedroom has become the multipurpose room and the stairs have turned into 2nd-4th period classrooms. All I want at this point is for my children to go to bed by 10pm. This is coming from the mom that had her babies down by 7:30pm in every time zone all year-round including Christmas and New Year’s Eve celebrations (it will still be a new year when they wake up). What I’m saying is use this time for you. I have clung to Christ in this time because otherwise the madness will set in. I sat in the car the other day. That’s it I just sat in the car. I didn’t go anywhere but I imagined I did. Then I took a breath, cleared my mind, and went back to finish my day. 

My hope is that you see the fulfillment of your heart’s desire. If that is overwhelming than I pray you make it, one more day to see the beauty in the creation of You. Then give it one more day but only take it a day at a time. You are here for a reason. You were born with purpose. You were born to be loved. You are LOVE, you are NEEDED, you are PURPOSED! 

Love ya,

-Juls