...And I’m back!!!

 

Thank you to the new and old friends that held me accountable and encouraged me to get back to writing. It’s been a long time since my last post but I’m back and I will be intentional about consistency here. 

I’ve been thinking a lot about relationships. I think there are stages of friendships. I’ve been blessed to have had many friendships in my life. I remember moving to Indiana in high school and thinking wow some of my classmates have known each other since kindergarten. At that point in my life I couldn’t have imagined knowing someone that wasn’t family for that length of time. I also remember as a child my mother telling me in response to I guess a nobody is my friend statement, “Are you finding yourself friendly?” Honestly, I probably was not finding myself friendly.

I’m now 38 years old, newish to the west cost and amazed at the people in my life. God has blessed me, is all I can say. My younger self would be so proud of the friends in my life. They are interesting, unique, and amazing individuals. But, how did I get here?

I wasn’t always a good friend and I didn’t always have good friends. When I was going through a divorce I was emotional bankrupt. My life just felt like chaos all time time. I felt empty and but I knew God could fix things if I prayed. The people around me weren’t making things better and something had to change. I began to pray and ask the Lord to surround me with people that are for me. Surround me with people who will be for me and who I can be for. I meant that prayer and soon after I began to see the people in my life that were for me and those that weren’t. The “friends” that weren’t for me were removed from my life and God brought something amazing friends into my life at that time. That was when God showed me what community meant. Now, I’m in a new phase of my life and I’m so blessed to have the friends that were my first community. But I’m also blessed to have a new community of friends. The blessing now is God is bringing back friends that I thought I would never see again. I’m even able to make friends through that friendship with some amazing people. One of the reasons I’m blogging again is because I had a conversation with someone that I’ve never had a real conversation with since high school. Who would have thought all these years later I would still be making friends with people from high school. My prayer is that you open your heart and mind to things that you never thought or imagined happening. God wants us to trust him and faith is based on the unseen. If you are in a space in life where things are not how you planed them to be. Than that’s exactly where God wants you. Allow him to show you how beautiful your life can be when your only expectation is for him to do his thing. Maybe he is putting the people he wants around you because that was his plan all along. I pray you enjoy the process even when it’s uncomfortable. 

With Love,

-Juls